I wrote this poem to satisfy my extreme thoughts and put my imagination into act. In reality, I could never off my life. I really have alot to live for regardless of the rollercoaster that I describe my life to be. But I can’t front, I think it, I have always thought it, and I don’t know if those thoughts will decease, and if they will, I have no damn clue when they will.
And its funny because the poem itself is a lyrical contradiction, like an argument between me and myself. I’m apologizing to these people whose lives I have fucked up or hearts in some manner, apologizing for the disappointment I have became to be to my family, apologizing to the friends I have hurt or I have lost to impulsive decisions I have made, concluding that many of those people, whom I love dearly, are better off without my existence and I am doing what is best for them… Love, Kyran.
On the other hand, I’m like fuck you, you, you, you, and you can fuck the damn devil himself and I hope you get flaming ass crabs all up your cooch. Why must I compromise to people who only care about what I do for them without my own personal emotions, no thank you, no acknowledgment to the job that is done, but acknowledgment to me fuckin’ up whatever. God knows no one is perfect, and 9/10 I may not be perfect for you, but I don’t see anyone else stepping up to the plate to give a flyin’ fuck about how you feel…
Whew…
Anyway, my room, like my life, is a mess. So I am cleaning it up. Trying to at least. I sold my broken laptop. Had to send away my tablet to get fixed so I’m currently using my roommates laptop. And looking for new laptop to purchase, debating if I want to go back to the microsoft windows platform or stick with my beloved mac osx. My tablet is in no way, shape, or form compatible with a mac, but then I know I gotta load up on anti-virus protection.
Lenovo is a nicely priced brand, plus it gives me opportunity to increase my ram and storage and has discounts so… yeah.
trial and error on T-shirts. I’m putting it on hold until I get my new computer, but I haven’t stopped my artwork ideas.
well… to my followers, thanks for tuning in on ya dude.
Peace&love
