the good parts about my day is that i am healthy, i was able to get more T, and I seen my new nephew.
seeing my big brother, however, was a huge disappointment. i feel like he is disappointed in me and embarassed to even say he is my brother. one of his coworkers was at his house, and at this point I pass well. I almost considered shaving but I personally hate a clean shaven face on me. I look 12 lol, but it was like my brother had to pull him aside to explain my whole situation in hushed tones and shit.
Im not an idiot you dick.
there is this high regard of protection between my mom and brother as far as outsiders and what they say to me that I clearly advise to them, I can take care of myself. Nobody needs to feel nor be responsible to the consequences I have/will face. This is completely why I am so distant today.
why associate myself with people who think so lowly of me and my lifestyle?
then my moms constantly complains about what her crackhead neighbors potentially think of me…
to know people around my moms crib will jump me, rob me, kill me for being me sucks…. no better word to describe how i feel. i really wish that i had more than a therapist to vent to about this….
